Poor Matt. I can totally see how he wouldn't think he could tell this to his friends, especially Foggy ("Misspelling hanookah is a mistake. Attempted murder is something else!") but Karen too ("I think he was inevitable. I don't see the difference anymore.")
And, oh, talking to Father Lantom about possibly killing Fisk turns out to be entirely different to confessing an actual murder. But I'm sure he would make himself say it anyway, not sure if he can ask for absolution but confessing nonetheless.
And then there's Frank, the guy that told him there is no going back, and Matt wants to prove him wrong, he wants to, but what if he can't? What if it's true? Frak would know, after all. Does it even matter what he does from now on? Once a murderer, always a murderer, isn't it? But then there is a scream in the night, and maybe it matters to them, if not to him.
"What the hell 's going on with you, Red?" Matt laughed. "I had a bad day."
Re: TW for attempted non-con, OMC/Matt, death of OMC, drugged drinks
And, oh, talking to Father Lantom about possibly killing Fisk turns out to be entirely different to confessing an actual murder. But I'm sure he would make himself say it anyway, not sure if he can ask for absolution but confessing nonetheless.
And then there's Frank, the guy that told him there is no going back, and Matt wants to prove him wrong, he wants to, but what if he can't? What if it's true? Frak would know, after all. Does it even matter what he does from now on? Once a murderer, always a murderer, isn't it? But then there is a scream in the night, and maybe it matters to them, if not to him.
"What the hell 's going on with you, Red?"
Matt laughed. "I had a bad day."