Oh god the Sherlock kink meme. I wasn't even on there very long and they did serious damage to my already low self-esteem. I had to delete my LJ and all my work because they flamed me for first me getting worked up over their general nastiness on the rant meme and then I wrote a very personal fill that everyone tore to shreds and honestly? Even though at the moment my presence in fandom namespace is just about nil and I was on that meme three and a half years ago for like a month I still have anxieties that someone will somehow find me and humiliate me all over again.
God, looking back too the behavior of some people was just shameful because I s2g I was 19 and the people picking on me had to be at least twice my age some of them? What a bunch of assholes.
Ayrt would like to apologise on behalf of everyone in that fandom and also myself, in case I was one of the people who was awful to you. I'm glad you got out when it went sour, and I hope you find lots more happy spaces.
<3 Thanks bro. I've been on and off tumblr for a few years and made a lot of great friends that helped me to be comfortable writing about hard things and confident in my work. I try to not be angry and I forgive you if you engaged in that.. I know fandom can bring out the worst in people sometimes. That community just needed serious modding that it wasn't getting. Some people think the freedom in anonymity allowing you to say what you feel means the freedom to be cruel and that's why good mods are so important!
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(Anonymous) 2015-10-08 01:10 am (UTC)(link)God, looking back too the behavior of some people was just shameful because I s2g I was 19 and the people picking on me had to be at least twice my age some of them? What a bunch of assholes.
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