i can't remember which defender (danny i think) it was because i binged the entire thing in one sitting + retained nothing but danny says that matt had no intention of getting out of midland circle so i'm just looking for anything involving suicidal matt. matt hiding it well. matt getting sloppy during fights as a subconscious cry for help. someone noticing. someone noticing early. someone noticing late. matt seeking help. matt being extra cagey + secretive about it. matt being in denial about it. matt accepting it. matt breaking down. matt being obstinate. matt asking for help. matt refusing help.

literally anything you want to write that focusses on matt being suicidal + depressed. hit me with all that sweet sweet angst.