This is the OP and I'd love this so much if you ever do get around to it, it sounds really interesting, and I totally get the "Matt feeling jealous" thing because, in a hilariously awful twist of fate, when I had unipolar depression at fourteen/fifteen/sixteen I actually was secretly jealous of bipolar people because at least they had ups. And then I manifested bipolar II when I was seventeen, and realized hypomania sucks and there is no winning.