Really tho. Matt knows for sure now that he's screwed (literally and figuratively). He fought hard and still got raped, and he knows it'll happen again, so the next night he tried to convince himself not to bother fighting.
But he's still scared, because Fisk is big and last night hurt, and he spent the entire day after limping and listening to everyone make fun of him for it. And not fighting is just about the more horrifying choice he can make, but if he fights it'll just hurt worse and yep. Overall terrible situation.
So that night when he hears Fisk moving towards his bunk Matt tries to be stoic and shut off his brain and just let it happen, but the moment Fisk gets on top of him he starts crying.
But Fisk is smart, right? In it for the long-con. So he pretends like he's doing Matt a favour - looking out for him (cause that's their arrangement, right?) - and doesn't do anything penetrative that night. The first night was shock and awe, to show Matt his place. Maybe tonight he pet's Matt's hair and shushes him and acts magnanimous by just "asking" Matt to get him off with his hands; tomorrow night, with his mouth. And he makes sure Matt gets off every time too.
And then a week goes by before the second time Fisk fucks him, and the scary thing is: it's easier this time. And it keeps getting easier every time after that.
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But he's still scared, because Fisk is big and last night hurt, and he spent the entire day after limping and listening to everyone make fun of him for it. And not fighting is just about the more horrifying choice he can make, but if he fights it'll just hurt worse and yep. Overall terrible situation.
So that night when he hears Fisk moving towards his bunk Matt tries to be stoic and shut off his brain and just let it happen, but the moment Fisk gets on top of him he starts crying.
But Fisk is smart, right? In it for the long-con. So he pretends like he's doing Matt a favour - looking out for him (cause that's their arrangement, right?) - and doesn't do anything penetrative that night. The first night was shock and awe, to show Matt his place. Maybe tonight he pet's Matt's hair and shushes him and acts magnanimous by just "asking" Matt to get him off with his hands; tomorrow night, with his mouth. And he makes sure Matt gets off every time too.
And then a week goes by before the second time Fisk fucks him, and the scary thing is: it's easier this time. And it keeps getting easier every time after that.